I Just Love My Friends

Kayla:
She's just so fun loving and I've known her forever and I just love her innocence. It's with her I have the most innocent and childish fun that I still miss from being a kid...

TJ:
Our convos are the best.  We talk about orgis, hot guys, nerdfighter stuff, how much of a stalker she is, how 3 ways work out, what we would do if we have boyfriends, how we would be as wives, how bad I would be if you divorced me, and how no topic is off limits. Plus, I get to dish out so much relationship advice to her xD

Julia:
Julia, Julia, Julia... Oh god, she's my twinsies and our Omegle fun is awesome. The fact we are both so innocent yet so perverted is amazing and makes us the best of twinsies. I just love you and all the crazy times we have.

Sara:
We are RP buddies and on skype chat, we just randomly start singing songs. We tend to do "Call Me Maybe" and "Bromance" where we are finishing each of each other's lines xD

Finals

Ugh...
It's so close to summer, but 20% of my grade sits on my finals...
Yup, the 3 past months were only worth 80%.

So, my first two finals are tomorrow and I can't focus. The weather is nice, the internet is on, and I'm tired of work.

My worst subject is my first final... Great.

The teacher is a dumbass football coach and taught us almost nothing. His class was a teach-yourself basically. And its not like I ever studied for his tests and still got 80s...

Even if I don't take his test, I still pass his class. Yup, 20% down the drain and I can still pass.

But tomorrow, I have World Geography (worse subject) and Geometry (best subject) (still have to do the final review for a bonus though)
Then Wed. I have Drama (I still need to memorize my monologue) and English (Oh god, I hate trying to study for this one).
Thursday is Theology (which is a joke) and Spanish (doesnt sound too hard)
Friday is Bio (I really need to do the review for the curve, and I have yet to start it)

So, uh... Yeah. I'm slightly screwed but we'll see how everything turns out.

I need to post more...

Yeah. I really need to post more on here...

BUT
I noticed something.

My most read posts are about

1. Masturbation
2. A stalker bitch
3. My friend's boyfriends

All very weird/innapprioate posts...

And speaking of Lexy and her BFs, yeah, she broke up with Johnny a few weeks ago. Yeah, she's not exactly the best person to date, but I still love her. (Basically, she has really bad post-breakup relationships, where she hates the boy.)

But yeah. Hai. Here's a post. LAWL.

Loss of a Role Model

So this morning at around 4 am, one of the strongest people you could have ever seen died.

Her name was Theresa. She had a rare form of bone cancer. She was diagnosed 2 years ago and it started in her leg. Within that time, the cancer just spread dramatically. You could see her in school with her chemo in a bag. 

I met her cause it was about the 3rd week of school and it was Freshman-Senior week. She was my senior. She made me wear wacky outfits that week, including 3 inch cheetah high heels.

That was the only time I talked to her, but I would see her in the halls a lot. Sometimes she was in a wheelchair, having a friend push her and carry some of her books. Either way, she was always smiling. 

Anyone could tell you that she was the most beautiful person you had ever seen. She wore a bandana to cover of her lack of hair, but she was still drop dead gorgeous.

She was the oldest of 8. Her brother Daniel is in my grade and her sister Francis a year above me. Both of the are just like Theresa, strong and always smiling. Both of them knew how badly their sister was doing, and they still smiled and laughed through it all.

Today at school, we had an assembly. It was for Theresa. The whole school, minus those taking AP exams, were there. Everyone cried. Theresa’s friends got up and told some happy and sad stories about her. Even those who barely knew her got up and spoke, including me.

It was a sad day. Just looking at her Facebook wall is bringing me to tears. So many people looked up to her, including myself.

There is so much more I could say, but my thoughts are too scrambled and there is nothing that could make this do her justice fully.

All my prayers go out to her family and loved one, cause now they are the only ones suffering due to this lost.

However, she is in a better place now. She is no longer suffering from her cancer and now she is in God’s loving arms in the Heaven. 

I Miss It All...

Don't worry, this time is not an emotional break down...

I do still miss home though...

This tank top I'm wearing reminds me of home and summer... It smells like Rockaway sand and sunscreen. I really don't wanna wash it now.

I don't want to lose this smell. I'll never forget the smell completely, but the reminder right now makes me smile.

I miss the New York sun, the hot sand, the salty water, and just the atmosphere...

I miss being able to walk 2 blocks to buy an Arizona for 99 cents from the grocery store, where the owners love me...

I miss walking across the street to knock on my friend's door...

I miss riding my bike to the boardwalk, even when I'm not allowed to...

I miss just being 5 minutes away from everyone...

I miss my friends...

I miss the beach...

I miss food! New York pizza, Italian food...

I even miss Plum's. No, not the best food, but it was 2 blocks away and I would see everyone there.

So, here I sit at midnight... Typing a post, smiling, breathing in the familiar smell off this tank top...




No tears tonight...

Just memories...

With that final saying, I bid you a good night, and hopefully, sweet dreams... 

124 days

124 days till I can get away... 

124 days till I can be myself again... 

124 days till I get my ass out of here...

124 days till I'm free... 

124 days till I can go home...

I don't belong here. I belong back home. I want to go back. I want my friends. I miss them and I'm tired of hearing their stories. I could've been there, I could've seen it... I feel like I don't have enough time when I'm hear. School sucks. I almost feel like I'd rather be back home, going to a high school where I have to get up by at least 6 and take the subway or a bus or SOMETHING! My brother got that experience. He had to wake up at 5 each morning, then took a subway at 6, having to switch trains and all, and getting to go to school in the city. Sure... Here I wake up at 7, I don't leave my apartment till 7:55 usually... But I want my friends. I love them and they mean the world to me. I honestly feel forgotten and I'm starting to think they feel forgotten too. If my best friend replaced me, in anyway... I may just die. I've known her since I've been two! I freakin' love her and miss her. No one can fill the gap of out friendship.

I just wanna go home. I just wanna have the freedom I had. Here... I can't walk anywhere. I can't even walk to the damn soda machine thats two building away after sundown, because then my mom is scared to death I'll be attacked by coyotes... If you're so scared of them, then why did we move the state full of them?

Can I just go back home?  

Can I just see my friends? 

Can I just all my little hiding places where you'd never find me? 

Can I just have fun again? 

Can I just stop crying? 

Can I just live in my big house again? 

Can I just go back in time?  

Can I just live the way I want to?  

 No...



Always the answer... No.

I honestly just want to stop crying... It's 4 am here, and I typing this, not bothering to wipe the tears.

I just miss home...

What I've Learned From the Vlogbrothers

Animal Sex... Pretty entertaining to hear it described by one of the best authors...

Giraffes are whores...

And it takes a while for a goat to hump the right part of the body....

Honey Badgers are more badass than I expected...

Art stealing is way more awesome when you're eating Pringles...

Cuteness is nothing but a drug...

Anglerfish know nothing and don't judge each other...

Hanklerfish...

Nerdfighteria is awesome... So to all my fellow nerdfighters...

DFTBA