"I'm Beautiful" Moments

Okay, I don't wanna sound selfish or anything, but...
I am beautiful. I don't mean this is a super conceited way. We are all beautiful, in our own way. We all have our flaws, including myself.

I have these moments, that can either last a whole night, or maybe less than an hour, in which I feel beautiful. I'm having one of these moments right now actually. These moments just happen almost randomly.

Literally, I'll just look in my mirror, and be like, "I am beautiful." I'll usually stare at myself for a little bit and allow myself to realize how beautiful I actually am. Other times when I look in the mirror, I can't but see my flaws. I see my pimples, my acne, my chapped lips, my uncontrollable hair, just everything. These moments are the exact opposite. This time, I see how pretty the color of my hair is, my fair skin and how it matched my grey-ish blue eyes fairly well. I don't know why, but I just love my eye color. I think it's awesome how blue they are sometimes or how cool they look when they are almost completely grey.

It's times like this I can't get over myself. Maybe this sounds so conceited, but it's true. It's nice to feel beautiful every once in a while, even if I'm just alone. I like to just feel beautiful as myself without trying hard and just knowing I'm naturally beautiful in my own way.

I think everyone deserves this feeling every once in a while. With society being so judgmental as it is, it's awesome to feel good in your own skin. It's fun to have these moments where it seems no one can bring you down. You just feel proud of yourself for being yourself.

I'm sure we all have those family members, friends, and neighbors who always tell us how pretty we are, and we can't help but not believe them. Well, sometimes it's great to know they are right, that they aren't just saying that.

Honestly, I hope whoever is reading this has had this feeling before. If not, you really should know you are beautiful, even if no one has said it lately. You are gorgeous. You are pretty. You are beautiful. You are you.

Reasons I Don't Need A Big Social Life

I love most of my friends to pieces, but when I tell them I have 2 weeks left here, they ALL suddenly want me to do EVERYTHING. That's fine if they all want to hang out with me, but I just cant say no to them. They try to start trying to convince me to say yes and ask me why I'm saying no.

Like, 2 days ago, 3 of my friends were having a sleepover. I wasn't sure about it, since I had a lot of work I wanted to catch up on. I said yes, never the less. It was really fun and I'm glad I went, but the day after I was exhausted. We stayed up till 6:30 am, and I woke up at 7:45 am. The whole day I was falling asleep for 5 minutes intervals on whoseever couch or comfortable surface I was laying on. 

So yesterday, I got home from the sleepover at 4. Again, I was falling asleep on my couch over and over again. One of my other friends call me, asking me to hang out. I kept saying no over and over again. Finally, I gave in and let her sit out on my porch with me. By the time she left though, she probably had a few bruises. When I'm tired, I don't think. When I don't think, I can be very abusive to my friends. What can I say? They are all fun to hit. (By hit, I dont mean really hurt.)

But I have 2 weeks before school.

2 books to read an annotate

200 words each for me to write for 5 conflicts each of these 2 books (2,000 words total)

And now my tumblr RP social life and a good start to sophomore year is starting to head down the drain due to my "social life"